your voice gave me chills

trisedprior:

TMI AU: The Last of the Herondales

“Jonathan-” Tessa started.

But Jace cut her off violently. “Stop calling me that!” Tessa stared as Jace tries to compose himself, a view not new to her.

“I’m Jace Lightwood. I’m no Herondale, I barely knew my family.”

Tessa smiled kindly at him, “You may not have know them, Jace. But you are Herondale, you are warrior like they are, you fiercely protect those you love at the cost of your own life. You are a Herondale, Jace. You are the last of the Herondales, and I am very proud of you.”

Tess, Tess, Tessa… Was there ever a more beautiful sound than your name? To speak it aloud makes my heart ring like a bell. Strange to imagine that, isn’t it – a heart ringing – but when you touch me that is what it is like: as if my heart is ringing in my chest and the sound shivers down my veins and splinters my bones with joy.

“Most people are lucky to have even one great love in their life. You have found two.”

 

I read them all. Every word you wrote. You and I, Tess, we’re alike. We live and breathe words. It was books that kept me from taking my own life after I thought I could never love anyone, never be loved by anyone again. It was books that made me feel that perhaps I was not completely alone. They could be honest with me, and I with them. Reading your words, what you wrote, how you were lonely sometimes and afraid, but always brave; the way you saw the world, its colors and textures and sounds, I felt- I felt the same way you thought, hoped, felt, dreamed. I felt I was dreaming and thinking and feeling with you. I dreamed what you dreamed, wanted what you wanted, and then I realized that truly I just wanted you. The girl behind the scrawled letters. I loved you from the moment I read them. I love you still.

The balcony. Oh my god, the balcony.

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